I am gone for the weekend

I bet I'm going to have so much fun

Yeah, right

posted by Suicide at 4:27 AM

Oh I don't know what's going on. I think I am in the middle of another *turning point* or something in my life, I just really don't know currently. I don't think that I am that bad of a person, certainly I am not the cleanest soul out there but even then, if I think of a sin that I have done I can't come up with one! But that was a previous convo with a different person, whom I am currently missing though I know not why. I think I lied to myself way too much over the past few years so that the lie became truth, or at least it gave me something to do and I believed in it. But I have already talked about that... You know this blog isn't really doing much. My life just doesn't seem full. Probably because I am a recluse by nature. I have many character flaws, that being one of them, another being that I am too nice. "Too nice" you say? Well it is true. Even if I try to be mean, my nice side still shines through like some misguided star looking for something to do. But everyone has a dark side about them.

Amanda is bugging me about an email currently, thought I might toss that in. Kay thought we were dating... that isn't true! At least I haven't been informed if we are or not... I don't think so... *twitch*

I wonder how you get pictures posted in here... I don't know. Probably if I took the time and did some research or something along those lines I could figure it out. Probably even make this a cool site! HA! Bout magine.

As I was saying, dark side. Most people, even those close to me, don't know what lurks within me. I'm not saying its a demon or anything like that *although... that WOULD be cool I guess, never have to wait in line for the movies at least with my demon status* but there are times that I almost snap. Personally I hope that I don't snap, because if I do, well someone might get hurt. I think all those years bottling up my emotions wasn't such a good idea...

Either way, it's no big. On a happier note, I am not bleeding quite so frequently from any orifice, although once in a while it does happen. I still have thoughts of making a webcomic, but the whole no talent/lack of money thing keeps getting in the way. So fooey with that I suppose. I have thought about getting a new computer, my quest to build my own has gone to the foof pile. Again, lack of talent/money rears its ugly little head. Racing hasn't been going well. Managed to fuck my transmission up really good, and I borrowed one and put that in, that didn't work so good either, so I fixed my transmission but I think they gave me used parts... gah. Replacing transmissions sucks ass. It's a boat, not a damn car. Gravity works against you.

If you all are wondering why this post is broken up into "paragraphs" or something closely resembling that, well that came about from a convo I had the other night about the last one not being in paragraph form. So, well, there you go.

Amanda is being rather forthcoming, though I don't know why. I think I know, but I don't know. You know?

I have tried to be more funny as of late... I don't know if it is working out. But it keeps me amused and that is all it is required to do! *gives self a point* WEEE I'm winning!

So I got myself some books for my birthday back along... And I kinda neglected them...
Infact I left one downstairs in the tv room on...Saturday? Maybe it was Sunday... I forget. Anyways, I broke down and bought some books from the Magic: the Gathering series. The last sets of cards was about Mirrodin so I got all 3 books pertaining to that. They would be The Moons Over Mirrodin *about the Mirrodin set*, The Darksteel Eye *about the Darksteel set*, and The Fifth Dawn *about the... you guessed it! The Fifth Dawn set*. So that completes the Mirrodin Cycle (that's what they call it, a cycle, amazing) I also found another Magic book that I didn't have so I got it. It is The Monsters of Magic, an anthology, which I am currently reading. So I decided to check what they had in the computer about some stuff on Diablo, just because I was bored and there was a keyboard there. It said that there were some Diablo novels in there! Hmmm I had remembered seeing something about those online so I investigated. They had Legacy of Blood which was book #1, The Black Road which was book #2 and book #3 uh.... that's the one that I started but left down stairs.... I forget the name of it... the City of Shadows I think... Well since my birthday I have read books 1 and 2 of the Diablo series. But they just don't flow like a Magic one does... well... most of the Magic ones.

Amanda's IM window keeps blinking at me...

I started the Magic one this morning and I am already half done with it, and I haven't really had time to read, what with work and all. So like I said, it flows nicely.

One of my online friends sent me to a link of a drawing she put on the internet the other night, I left a comment and looked at the other things she did. I saw this mermaid pic she did and I thought it was good. So I asked her if I could use it on something and she said sure. So yeppie! I asked if I could color it and she said I could and that she would do one as well, so I wonder how the two of us did. I think mine came out ok. Not bad really for my first time with Corel Photo House, rather than Photoshop or some other elite picture thingy. Paint just wasn't doing it for me. Stoopid paint betrayed me! *stabs paint program*

I really have nothing to say...

Other than that I am going insane...

*twitch*

Home is where the heart is

I have one in a jar on my desk

Some eyeballs and a spleen as well

:)

posted by Suicide at 6:06 PM